Happy Monday everyone!! I hope you all have been getting the rain Michigan has been getting! 🌧 What a blessing!
You know what else is a blessing? All of my wonderful family and friends that reach out when my heads in the clouds and it’s a bit dark. I had so many people give me some amazing advice and just took some time for me. Never underestimate the power of a quick message to someone saying you love them or you’re thinking of them.
This week has been a big reflection for me as far as the mission goes. I have 8 weeks left and as of yesterday I’ve been in Michigan for 16 months. This week has flown by in some ways. I needed Monday to talk to everyone. Tuesday was exchanges which I also desperately needed. I got to go with Sister Winkle, who is just the best! We had fun while doing the work!
So back to my reflecting. I’ve been given council by President Heap to move forward with a perfect brightness of hope. I had to expand that meaning this week as I pondered what impact serving a mission has made in my conversion and in the conversion of others.
I see conversion kind of as commitment. If you’re converted to the Lord, it is built on a sturdy foundation that never crumbles. It’s a promise, faith, belief, trust, and hope. It also takes consistent care and upkeep. I’ve learned a lot while serving a full-time mission. Things that will bless me now, and for the rest of my life, as I strive to continually and earnestly seek to improve. The biggest thing standing in my way lately has been the adversary (go figure).
Lately, I’ve been realizing just how little time I have left on the mission. I’ve felt irresponsible for my lack of a lot of things throughout my mission. I’ve felt like my mission wasn’t acceptable to the Lord. Like I didn’t do everything I possibly could. Why did He send me to Michigan if He knew I was going to do all of this??
Well I fasted about it this weekend. I wanted to know how God felt about my missionary service. I was writing down everything I could find in Preach My Gospel and a few other sources that defined a successful missionary and their purpose. I changed how I read it this time, and wrote everything in the form of a question, asking myself, “Have I been able to…” (throughout the mission). A couple questions really got me down. A thought would come into my head: “Well no, but…” Nothing after that, but I feel like the message was clear.
Why am I focusing on everything I did wrong on the mission rather than focus on everything that was gained? I got to meet amazing missionaries and friends all over Michigan! I have the best Mission President that I could have had! My conversion was deepened. I taught many wonderful people, one of whom is preparing to go to the temple to receive her endowment in the next few months. SHE now experiences the blessings of the gospel daily, and will for the rest of her life and through the eternities.
I feel like my responsibility now is to take everything I needed to improve, and move forward. Leave the past in the past. Learn from it so it is not repeated. Make goals for the future so I can continue on the path that leads to eternal happiness, and apply it today.
“Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.”
I’m excited for the rest of the mission. I want to improve. I want to do the Father’s will. Nothing brings me greater joy. I’ll end with a quote from the prophet:
“The gathering of Israel…There is nothing happening on this earth right now that is more important than that. There is nothing of greater consequence. Absolutely nothing. This gathering should mean everything to you. This is the mission for which you were sent to earth.”
If nothing else is more important, then it must stand to reason that it will bring the most joy to you and your family. Jesus said himself to feed his sheep. This is what he was talking about. Sharing the gospel in all ways he did. Teaching. Serving. Loving. Inviting. Being courageous. He wouldn’t have asked us to do it if we couldn’t, and he doesn’t ask us to do it alone.
Feeling pumped this week! Have an amazing week and stay safe! What’s one way you can “Feed HIS sheep” this week?
Sister (Katie) Malan